The Next Chapter

When I decided to take a Leave of Absence from work I never thought I would have to bury my dad. I left thinking that I needed to be by my dads' side no matter what the outcome was. I pushed the thought of death so far back in my mind that at times I forgot he had a terminal illness. I was always very optimistic and positive towards my dads' condition because he was a strong man who never complained about pain or how deteriorated he felt. He instilled in us that positive attitude anyone would admire to have. I knew the day would come but I didn't think it would come that fast. On Friday, my dad passed away and with him, he took half of my heart.

These eyes that once saw him know they will no longer see him again. They know the sun will rise and set without him anymore. The home he once built is now an empty place filled with memories. My dad was a man of little words but his actions spoke louder. His deeds are not left unnoticed because wherever he went he planted a seed in someone. He planted a seed of love, kindness, and humbleness in us all.

My heart is torn into pieces not only because of his absence in my life but because I see how much my mom is suffering. Her suffering is something no one can console. I also see how deeply sorry my brother is for not being able to be here with us. On the other hand, I'm at peace knowing that my dad is in a better place where pain and suffering don't exist. The Bible says " Blessed are those who die in the Lord for they will rest from their labor." My dad worked day in, day out in order to provide for our family. As a small child, you don't notice these sacrifices until you have a family of your own.

I thank God because my dads' doctors gave him a life span of days maybe even weeks but we were able to enjoy him an extra two months. I know without a doubt in my mind that my dad was truly happy knowing he was surrounded by people that loved him. I am also thankful because my mom is a strong soul who endures all through Christ. This experience has brought us a lot closer to God and has allowed him to show us our true purpose in this life. As I sit here and end this chapter in my life a new one begins. A chapter of love, prosperity, knowledge, and purpose in my life.

As for you reading this, I pray that God may use my testimony to serve as an open door into his path. I pray that you may know God in ways you never thought you could and that you may always show love to those who are in need.